To My Jeremy

When I first met Jeremy, I was broken. I had been on so many bad dates that I expected this one to be another date that went just okay.  I had hit it all time low with my self-esteem and honestly, I wasn’t proud of it. I wanted attention from any boy who would give it to me. I just wanted someone to fix me. I wanted to feel whole again.

Walking out of my dorm room, Jeremy came and picked me up. I remember the first thing I thought about was how tall he was. Jeremy is about 6’4 and has the build of an NFL center. I gave him a hug. But something about this hug felt different from all of the other hugs I had given. He didn’t give me a half-ass hug. He hugged me and something about it made me feel safe. I didn’t want him to know that. We went to dinner and the entire time, I completely grilled him. I was trying to be a hardass. It wasn’t a good look. He read right through me. It was hard not to keep my guard up.

There was something about Jeremy that felt so right. We had so much in common and I felt like he just got me. I could tell he was a kind person. I liked him a lot.

After our first date, I remember going home, laying in bed, and smiling at my ceiling. I pulled out my phone and did something that I normally don’t do. I texted him FIRST. I felt like I didn’t need to play hard to get. After one date, I knew he was someone that I would be seeing more.

Ten months later, Jeremy and I have bought a house and moved in together. Call me crazy but it feels right. I wish I could describe how great it feels to be dating Jeremy. It is the most natural thing I’ve ever done and that is how I know he’s my soulmate.

Sometimes when I’m talking to Jeremy, it feels like I’m talking to myself. There is no filter and no judgments. We say what we feel and we aren’t afraid to be our authentic selves. I wear my pink fuzzy mom pants and dance to “Hotline Bling” and instead of judging me, this man will get up and dance with me.

I could say a lot about Jeremy but all I can say is that this is the happiest I’ve ever been. I am in the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been it. Heck, I think my friends would say that Jeremy and I have one of the strongest bonds that they have ever seen. My mental health has never been better. I feel empowered and motivated. And that is because I know I have someone who is constantly cheering for me.

If I could look back, I would tell myself to wait. You’re going to find that person you click with. Don’t settle for someone that doesn’t make you feel whole. Don’t settle for someone who doesn’t make you feel like the best version of you. Your person is out there.